Faithful on the Grind
“Wow. God is faithful.” This is what I think as I struggle to reject the last seductive advances of slumber and free my tired body from the covers wrapped around it like a warm, comforting embrace. Or better yet, I’m a prizefighter who’s just caught that brain-jarring knockout blow to the temple and who now, despite the befuddlement that clouds my mind, must call upon every ounce of willpower to rise again, first to one knee and then back on my feet before the referee ends the ten-count.
Lol…okay maybe I’m being a bit dramatic with that last metaphor but, since I’m far from a morning person, I have this epic showdown with my bed every time the (alarm clock) bell rings. Daily putting in hours at an often stressful job, going hard in the gym, and then grinding on music stuff until the wee hours of the night, it’s no surprise that I regularly have found it challenging to get up for work over the past few months. And when I leave the office and go back home, the temptation to take it easy and slack off is there to greet me at the door of the apartment. But then I am reminded of the very specific goals I have for this year, and I know I have to dig in and go a little harder. While God has blessed me with talents, the past has shown me that I could stand some major improvement when it comes to discipline and consistency.
Now I’m not looking for sympathy or a pat on the back. In reality, I can’t take any special pride in my grind because this is what I’m supposed to be doing as I make my crossover into adulthood. And furthermore, tons of people all over the world have been grinding harder than me for years, even decades. My parents serve as a very ready example of that for me. Even as far as my peers go, I think of my boy DJ D. Scott a.k.a. D.s.sence, for example, and remember how hard some people work to reach their goals.
But even deeper than that, I think of a God, whose “faithfulness reaches to the clouds” according to the writer of Psalm 36:5. This expression of praise captures just how overwhelming this trait of God is. And He is not just faithful sometimes; rather, “[his mercies] are new every morning; great is [His] faithfulness” (Lam 3:23). As I struggled just to get out of bed in order to handle my responsibilities, I though of God’s faithfulness and felt my own frailty in comparison. At the same time, I felt a great sense of relief, because, as His child, I am the beneficiary of this faithfulness. I am a work in progress, yes, but I am a project that God is committed to finishing. Paul wrote that he was, “confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ,” (Philippians 1:6). And while in this process I fail daily, “He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins” (1 John 1:9) when we confess them to him. That should be reason enough for me to get out of bed every morning.